Ok....been a while. I suck at keeping up with stuff...anyway, dumped last guy i was seeing from vegas, not interested in anyone right now....except for one guy who is too young and too lazy to keep my attention, so why waste my time....but, ugh, something about him i can't seem to get away from....I'm starting to think i may be single for a while longer...i guess i have to start going on dates to meet guys, right? It's just so much trouble, you go, you meet, and you know 5mins in if you want to continue..i know i'm a terrific actress when i'm trying to get what i want, but when i don't want to be some place or with some person, i just turn mean...it's a horrible trait i know...but, for some reason, those are the guys that never stop calling...what's up with that?? Well, whatever, i guess we'll see what happens in the next month..........it can only get better:)

What the hell am i doing?

Oh jesus, my birthday is Wed and who am i going out to dinner with?? My ex-husband.....what the hell? The prospects in sac are so bad that i'm now falling back on a guy i've been divorced from for 11yrs? I swear my life takes twists and turns I could never predict.  Went out on a date with a guy,who was my neighbor 9yrs ago,didn't put 2 and 2 together until he asked me over for wine and gave me his address...what's funny,is that my ex used to tell me what a perv he was back then,lol...doubt i'll be going out with him again. He told me stories of going to gay bars with his ex gf,ok,no bigee,but they went A LOT...plus telling me what a total liberal he is..I'm no Sarah Palin,but not a screaming liberal either.... Then i have the guy who i thought seemed cool, been talking to him,then he decides to tell me he has bad skin,and has been using proactive...now, i'm totally turned off.....could never tell in his pics...then sends me some crazy message that said i'm the sweetest most awesome girl,how would i feel if he wanted to wash my hair,massage me(has a massage table), rub his hands all over my hair, i'm getting wierded out now........why me? Why do i get all the wierdos...haha,or maybe it was sweet what he said? I don't know.......i'm 42 and more confused about men than when i was 15!